Time and time again, I have the weirdest sensations. I honestly believe I have a sixth sense. Premonition, gut feeling, odd dream, call it whatever you want.
They don't come often, but when they do, the results are inevitably correct.
Last night I had the strangest dream--or was it a beautiful nightmare?
Squeeze me?
It was about work. I have many dreams of work. When you have two lives, home and work, it is inevitable you will dream of both. But my dream showed many things. Upheaval. Change. Death. I know...sounds sadistic. Sometimes I choose to tell people, sometimes I refrain. Old cultural folklore demands one not to reveal premonitions before or after they happen.
Today when I came to work, I heard about upheaval, change and death. All in that order.
I want to brush off the sixth sense.
I'm learning not to be rattled.
But it lives within me, as a warning and sometimes a guide. It follows me during the day and haunts me at night.
Release me...sometimes knowing is too much.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Mind vacation
Do you ever walk into a room, on a mission and forget why you are there?
Do you ever pick up the phone, dial the number and forget who you called?
Do you ever go to the grocery store, buy your stuff and come out wondering where your car is?
Do you see a person you know, flag them over and then forget their name?
What is the common theme running here?
I think these last couple of years, I have been on a mind vacation.
Squeeze me?
I eat almonds, I play crossword puzzles, I watch Jeopardy, I read three books a week but I feel like my mind is separating from my body. Alzheimers scares the sh** out of me so I am really trying to push my mind beyond its limits (which is not hard to do, joke some friends) in the attempts to boost my memory.
I will remember an event three years ago but ask me what I ate for breakfast today and I draw a blank.
Some call it Mommy Brain. Its true and I ask women who have had children whether they have the same affliction and 90% agree--they cannot remember important details.
If my mind and body take a vacation at the same time, I'm afraid I will end up in a catatonic state. But aren't we all already there?
Do you ever pick up the phone, dial the number and forget who you called?
Do you ever go to the grocery store, buy your stuff and come out wondering where your car is?
Do you see a person you know, flag them over and then forget their name?
What is the common theme running here?
I think these last couple of years, I have been on a mind vacation.
Squeeze me?
I eat almonds, I play crossword puzzles, I watch Jeopardy, I read three books a week but I feel like my mind is separating from my body. Alzheimers scares the sh** out of me so I am really trying to push my mind beyond its limits (which is not hard to do, joke some friends) in the attempts to boost my memory.
I will remember an event three years ago but ask me what I ate for breakfast today and I draw a blank.
Some call it Mommy Brain. Its true and I ask women who have had children whether they have the same affliction and 90% agree--they cannot remember important details.
If my mind and body take a vacation at the same time, I'm afraid I will end up in a catatonic state. But aren't we all already there?
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